There are so many goals I set for myself in 2018, some I achieved others passed by. And I ask myself as I look back in reflection, am I happy with where this year has taken me? Am I happy with who I am THIS year compared to last year? Maybe you’ve done the same. If you haven’t I urge you to do so.
I’ve gone through a lot of changes over the past year. Some good, some not so. And though I may not be where I wanted to be I have to recognize that life is something mystical. You get out of bed every morning hoping for the best and some days things go well. We all have those rainy days. This year I’ve learned to separate myself from those rainy days. In the end of the day, as 2018 rolls up forever, I look back and I see the man I’ve continued to become. The husband, the son, the father, the businessman. And though I have fallen short on some of my goals, I’m still fighting.
Watching as my sons grow up, I see them watching me; learning from me. It’s incredible! Awesome yet frightening. I’d never been too afraid to fuck them up until I realized my oldest was dealing with disappointment in the same way I do, by asking himself where he could have done better. He’s FIVE! I recognized in that moment, I’ve been teaching people to accept themselves. To love their fuck ups. But I was not accepting myself. In that moment, I did. I learned if I want my sons to love themselves, I need to show them me loving myself.
And on to 2019. The year of love, for me. It’s time for me to recognize my flaws and see them as quirks. Some that I can and want to change, others that I want to embrace. Isn’t that exactly what boudoir is? We photograph you as you are. Looking back at the pictures you see all the hard work that has brought you to now and you might see some of the work ahead. But I hope you can recognize the work to come as an incredible journey.
I hope this next year finds you loving yourself more and accepting your flaws and quirks.